Miss & Tragedy,

Monday, July 31, 2006

hmm..2day go c doctor..wah..doctor c my eye c till veri fast..he say ok..haha..lyk tat..thn cn go pay $$ liao..tix kind of doctor aso gt..power!heex..

anyway,2day nv c him in sch..haix..:(..i 2day cry lei..veri stupid rty?4 nth thn cry..wad m i doin man..wah..lucky no 1 c..if nt die liao..ok i admit tat i cry becux of him..cux gifin up liao wad..y still care bout his ting??hmm..dun wan 2 care le..cry n cry waste my tear onli..haha..realli i do hope 1 day,smday or soon..there is sm1 be there 4 me..no matter rain or shine..i duno e future bt i noe..nw i cn onli depend myself..cnnt alway ask 4 hlp le..even ask le gt pple wan 2 hlp mehx??i ask myself..did i choose correct sch?tix sch..?gd la..bt..haix..aiya..i wan 2 b back in pri sch time..even smting happen bt at least nt lyk sec sec life..so ma fan..so confused..

haix..tix few day..e nightmare keep cmin back..is e ting goin 2 happen again?i dun wish..i hope it wnt appear in my life again..!!!4eva n eva!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

3:08 AM

Friday, July 28, 2006

yesterday,my leg veri pain so i cry lor..cux cnnt stand up..bt after a while cn stand up bt leg veri pain..so i slowly walk..thn he say wad happen 2 ur leg..thn i say veri pain la..thn he say i gt cramp..thn i say no veri pain..thn he call me go mak my leg all tix..thn ok le..at a suddenly..he had cm back 2 last time le..haha..

thn after e whole ting end n parade i whn 2 hawker..wif shirley..cux rainin ma..i look at e rain..mak a wish under e rain..e 1st 1 cm truth bt e 2nd..i say if e wish cn cm truth thn rain if cnnt thn stop e rain..after a while e rain stop..i cry..cux cnnt le..bt after tat..my rain say e god is refillin water..bt i noe tat my hope gne my luv gne..all gne..i cry n cry..thn after tat saw him in e bustop..i act as if i dun care..bt i realli veri happy 2 c him..bt i satrted 2 tink..e wish i mak will nt cm truth so as nt 2 fall 2oo deep dun look at him..he stop at a bustop..thn i look b turn away..he look at me..bt..i dunno..i cry..cux i realli fallen 2 deep 4 him le ba..happily??where is mine??after e nightmare..i dun tink i still haf sweet dream..even though i act as if i dun care..bt e nightmare alway in my head..no matter hw i wash away aso cnnt..

9:27 PM

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

hmm..2day i sit at e basketball court there.hmm..tink alot of ting..last time memories n nw..lyk last time..i use 2 go 2 leng kee cc..c thm play bball..smtime i might aso play..those memories cant b wash..cux tat place i live 4 mre thn 7 yr..hw cn it b so easily wash off..there gt memories of my frenx,mayb las time i lyk de..alot alot..bt after i move 2 ting there..ting change..mayb even my life..hmm..lyk..whn i was in sec 1..everyting change..my life toward everyting,my frenx n character..dun ask me y..i aso duno jux feel lyk changin..so i started 2 change n change..after all i m nt myself..a totally different nowell..i started 2 hate myself..onli those memories in leng kee motive me..hmm..i started 2 b back myself again..i dunno y..mayb becux i tink pri sch de me is stupid or mayb i m hurt..hmm..nw ting r back 2 normal onli left..him..nt my luv 1..a veri gd frenx of mine..i lyk him every much..(lyk i frenx lyk)..cux he is there no matter i m happy,sad,disappoint or wad..bt nw..he totally change..nt onli me he aso..tat mak me quite shock..hmm..i wan my frenx back..after all..he is my best frenx..bt nw..mayb nt 2oo late..bt if he realli cm n c my blog i would wish 2 say..sry!i didnt wish 2oo..bt i realli tresure u tix frenx..i wish tat still lyk last time..no matter wad matter u will alway b by my side..protect me..i felt so sweet..if realli cn..i realli felt veri sry...hope ting cn b back lyk last time..ting change after we 2 in qss..wad happen?

if time cn go back i rather wan e simple life in gan eng seng pri sch..

5:15 PM

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

haf u eva noe hw i feel??i guess u do nt noe..i eva ask myself..m i 2oo wad le??bt i dun tink so..mayb smtime..i stress u ba..bt i didnt noe wad 2 do..m i wrng 2 b in love with u or 2 met u??so i wnt b so tong gu..i wnt noe wad is hurt n pain..mayb my world will still be rainbow colour..bt..ting..doesnt it b so gd??bt i aso wan 2 met u..so i will noe wad is truth love n happiness..bt nw i lost e track of u in my life..ur shadow had gne..ur smile...all tix had gne..i m so tired..n nw started 2 tink back..m i wrng or correct??i guess i will nv eva noe e ans..m i wrng??

hmm..anyway..2day nv go sch..sick sia..head pain untill cn die le..heex..anyway,gtg..byee

9:17 PM

e date started at feb 6 where i started 2 develop love 4 u..bt it aso ended at july 14..where it is ur b'day..so as 2 thk u 4 e sweet memories tat u gif me..to him:i waited n waited..tear keep dropin i didnt noe wad 2 do..e hurt is too..pain..i cant hold it anymre..i tld u i lyk u b4 bt ur ans is..so i decided 2 stay at a side 2 look at u..smile at u and support u.. i didnt expect 2 get ting return bt a liitle smile frm u 2 me.. i didnt wan u 2 look at me..cux i scare wait i might fall 2oo deep..i stay at e side waited n tear drop..no1 noe y..onli me..bt i decided 2 gif up on u..i ask myself cn i cope wif e hurt u left??will e path b lonely??will i get hurt whn i m recover my hurt?i ask n ask..bt i still wanted 2 gif up on u..
bt i will alway keep those memories in2 my heart n ur name..i will nt eva 4get u..cux u r e 1 who gif me stregth to live on n carry on wif my stuff..u r e 1 who gif me memories tat r so sweet..u r e 1 who mak my path wif happiness bt nt darkness..nw wifout u there,i mux learn hw 2 climb all tix..it tak time bt i will try my veri best..4eva n eva wnt 4get u..remember 2 smile alwayz..dun b sad cux i dun wan 2 c u upsad..my soul will alway follow u no matter where u go..dun wrry i wnt disturb u bt jux 2 stay at a side 2 support u n 2 noe u r alrty or safe or whn u nd sm1 i cn keep u accompany or sm1 2 tok 2..last, i love u 4eva..i will keep it in2 my heart..ur name..alway b in my heart..

i wanted 2 tell u smting..or mayb my feelin..whn mayb u cm n tak a look at my blog..u will noe hw i feel..

(whn u read e lyric, plz encod it 2 chinese simplified)

很想说

you are so beautiful
在我眼里你永远最美
连你一个微笑也都会让我醉
你所谓的幸福我想给
以为手不放开就是痴心绝对
爱与美
难道
笑容没了距离有了快乐也走了
还是真心走了彼此不信任了
终于懂了
真的
很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
my love
*
笑容没了距离有了快乐也走了
还是真心走了彼此不信任了
终于懂了
真的
很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
很想说会好好疼你的
很想说爱你是自由的
很想说你是否听见了
很想说你真的忘记了
爱了
就有坚持理由
别说我会留在路口不会走
爱你会直到最后
很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
很想说会好好疼你的
很想说爱你是自由的
很想说你是否听见了
很想说我们可不可以复合

6:43 AM

2day gt a match at smu..its my sch n henderson..hmm..wah..veri jin cai..nice..exited..after all, our sch win..heex..2day saw my pri sch frenx..haha..quite happy..dunno e gal gt did well in their match..hmm..2day aso quite sad de..nv c him in sch..dunno where he go..haix..duno..duno..duni!!haix..

4:50 AM

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

in singapore, u might lost in e middle of a path or wad..jux lyk me..i m lost in e love path..dunno wad 2 do...waitin 4 sm1 2 brin me back 2 where i supose 2 b..i m scare..i didnt noe wad 2 do..i m lost..bt i had aso learn hw 2 b strong le..i cry becux of u..wad i did is jux becux of u cux i didnt noe wad 2 do..u gif me e streght to live on..n nw i m lost..e streght is gne..had u eva noe hw i feel??did u hear me??no..i cn onli use time n tear 2 4get u..bt e memories??i cant 4 get..memories cause pple lot of harm..dunno wad 2 do..hmm..tear..i keep droppn..no1 noe y i cry..onli me noe e best..n u..u shld noe it..where r u??i m lost..

7:16 PM

Saturday, July 15, 2006

i duno wad 2 say..since e day i meet him,i gt e feeling le..bt waited 4 so lng le..since there izzit any ans, y hurt both us so deeply?so i started e 1 move..bt e ans is nt i wan..bt thn again u gif me hope destory it..so again i started e 2nd move..is 2 4get u..since there izzit any thing we cn start of we remain as frenx..bt nw..i didnt haf e strenght 2 carry on..u all me courage and strenght 2 carry on..no matter hw hard it is i try my best..bt whn it disappear..everything is gne..jux lyk u encourage me 2 study well..so i try my best 2 study well..bt nw??i ask myself..cn i realli do all those thing by myself??i hate e feeling..bt i realli duno wad 2 do..i rather nv meet u so i wnt noe hurt is so much pain..i rather i didnt love u so both of us wnt get hurt..bt i aso happy 2 noe u cuz u brin in laughter and smile to my life..i aso happy 2 love u..cuz u let me noe love u is a happy thing..no matter wad it is still so happy..bt wad cn i do??u bring me smile aso brin me hurt..shld i let u leave my life or carry on being me smile n hurt??i didnt noe wad 2 do..cuz nw we r lyk far apart nt lyk last time we msg each other n chat bout lot of thing..our relationship seen 2 be far apart..i realli duno wad will happen if u realli leave me alone..4eva..i hurt n sad..i didnt noe wad 2 do..save me!!

3:32 PM

Thursday, July 13, 2006

haha..nw in sch..doin nth sianz..hmm..well..2day his b'day.hope he will b happy..may all his wish cm truth.anyway,wait gt ncc trainin n ndp..die le la..haha..nw relax..wait die le

9:46 PM

e feelin 4 him had slowly faded away..lyk no feeling or mayb slowly slowly gne le ba..waited 4 so lng..shld haf gne le..lol..bt i tink no matter wad his name will alway b in my heart..hmm.nw i duno wad to do..i m in e darkness..toward me there r 3 exit..1 is e darkness exit,another exit has a thin light and e last exit is filled all wif light..i ask myself shld i stay at e 1st exit?bt it take time 2 4get him and mayb i will get hurt..e 2nd exit haf a little bit of hope 4 me to survive and i will nt get hurt..nw e last exit..i ask myself..has i eva want to go in?it may filled wif happiness and light bt do i realli lyk e exit?e ans is no..i went back between e 1st n 2nd exit..shld i stay in e darkness or go 2 e 2nd exit?i m confused i didnt noe wad 2 do..bt e feelin in 1st exit seen 2 b faded slowly..i didnt noe wad 2 do..i m confused..cn any1 hlp me..

6:14 PM

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

i m in e darkness..bt i saw a thin layer of light shinin on me..i wan 2 go as it may b e onli way 2 live on wifout hurt..bt i wan 2 stay in e darkness..i m confused..i didnt noe wad 2 do..i saw another exit which fill wif light..bt i didnt wan 2 go..cux i noe i wnt b happy in tat exit..i ask myself shld i stay or go 2 e thin layer of light?i m confused..i didnt noe wad 2 do..so i stay put..waitin 4 an ans..

7:56 PM

7:56 AM